It is very difficult to stay focused on the goal of going back to Krishna Although I try reading and also experience suffering but how do I increase my focus?

Krishna consciousness is a gradual process. We start by faith adhua shraddha. We hear from the authorities and then we start associating with devotees, then we start to practice Krishna consciousness, take initiation and then we start to eliminate the anarthas and then we get fixed in bhakti and then we gradually develop a taste or ruchi. We become very attached to Krishna and then we come to the stage of ecstatic love for Krishna and then when we see Krishna we get pure love of Krishna. So as your affection and love for Krishna increases, then you don’t ask such questions. You think how can I live so long without having the association of my wonderful Lord. I am not this body, I am a living force which is a part of Krishna. I am known as the jiva shakti. Sanatan Goswami, when he went to Lord Caitanya, at that time he was the prime minister of the empire of Hussain Shah and he said that people call me a great pandit but actually I am a fool because I don’t know what I am supposed to do, I don’t know who I am. So please enlighten me. So Lord Caitanya said, jivera svarup hoya nitya Krishnera das, that the living entity is eternally the servant of the Supreme Lord. So when we realized that then we won’t think it is hard to go with guru, Gauranga or Krishna. So it is a gradual process and you have to go step by step. When Parikshit maharaj was hearing the 10th canto of the Srimad Bhagavatam he had vowed that he would not eat or sleep before hearing the Srimad Bhagavatam. So I guess at least five days had gone by by that stage. Now what would we ask? I have to have a drink; can I sleep? But what did he say? Tell me some more about my wonderful Lord. Tell me what did my wonderful Lord do? Tell me more, tell me more. He was so eager. So, we have to develop that enthusiasm to hear about the Lord.

HH JAYAPATAKA SWAMI
2nd July 2018
Chennai, India